The Strangest Things...

Well it has been a long time since I posted here and the main reason is that I have been finding life a bit flat. I still haven't found a job and it has been getting me down a bit. I feel like life is rather pointless. But looking back it hasn't been all bad by any means. One of the best things has been settling back into church. I'm the first to admit that I screwed up last year on that count. Although it is true I was away a lot, I often travelled in a way that meant I stayed at my parents over the weekend between events. I could have travelled on the day a bit more. But then doing so has helped me this year. I managed to get to church in Leeds quite often, in fact I think more times that year than the three years of university before. I went to the church for a year or so before I moved to Newcastle and the congregation changed somewhat during that time. Since I have moved back to Leeds I have rejoined the church and I am seeing the benefit of staying in touch last ye...

So this weekend we are having a family holiday. Youth hostelling in the Peak district. A perfect excuse to go to Bakewell for some treats. It does mean that once again I will miss church in Leeds. It is becoming a bad habit, but I will take the opportunity to see if anyone is around at Fulwood. Unfortunately I already know that Lewis isn't going to be there, but I shall see. I believe it may be a bit too cold to go climbing peaks at this time of the year -  it feels freezing at normal altitudes. Apparently there are some caves we can visit which may save us if it rains. I should probably check the forecast actually.On that note... JM

Tonight things have come to a head in a way. It has become apparent that I have been dealing with some big issues for years. Or rather, failing to deal with them. I have been trying to be strong and though it out, failing to see that I need support. People have offered but I believed I was in control and could deal with things. I have been under some stress for a while and there are things I need to come to terms with from years ago. My mum is amazing and has been supporting my dad through some hard times, and she has had support from outside the family. I have tried to be supportive but I now see that supporting someone else takes its toll and leads you to need support. Which, as I said, I haven't been getting. As I have tried to keep stress contained this has led to me venting frustration at seemingly minor things and at people who are not the cause. I would like to apologize now for all the times I have messed up. I would like to particularly apologize to my...

I am in the midst of an application form at the moment and I need to write a page or two about my life as a Christian. This has got me thinking about the past and little of it I can remember.Whilst I currently only have 15 or so years of happenings to remember so far there is much I cannot easily recall. As I hope to have a long and happy life, and maybe even some kids and grandkids to share it with, I think I should make a record of it whilst I can remember it. I obviously don't refer to the more mundane things in life, but anecdotes from my time at school. college and uni; all the other other random things I have done such as scout camps and church trips away. I need to work out how to do this, whether to note stuff down as it occurs to me or whether to try and work systematically through the years, blocking out time spent in different places or doing different things then filling in the details gradually. It probably makes more sense to work backwards from the prese...